The song “Fallin” by Leah Salonga started with
these lyrics:
I’m afraid to fly
And I don’t know why
I’m jealous of the
people who are not afraid to die.
The word “afraid”
immediately appears twice in this phrase. In the first instance, the word “afraid”
points out to one’s phobia particularly of flying (aviophobia). This fear is
often accompanied or even caused by other types of phobia such as one’s fear of
heights, fear of being over water, fear that something may go wrong while
flying, etc. Unlikely, however, in this song “Fallin,” what triggers one’s fear
is the broken or unfulfilled promise made by another to her. This is expressed
in this next phrase,
It’s just that I recall
Back when I was small
Someone promised that
they’d catch me
And then they let me
fall…
In the second instance,
the word “afraid” is connected to a fear of what life or death may bring. It is
more on a fear of the unknown.
In both instances,
whether what triggers one fear is real or imagined, fear can hold one back to
live in the past, thus she cannot live her life fully in the present moment or
to face her future. Handling one’s fear then seems a determining factor of one’s
greatness or failure in life or in love. When there is fear, one cannot live her
life fully. When there is fear, one cannot love to the fullest.
In my experience as I grow
older, I become afraid of almost everything. There is this fear of my future,
fear to grow old and become sick, fear of dying, fear of sleeping and never
wake up anymore, fear of waking up to know that a loved one is lost, fear to
have no fear at all and become reckless, etc. Because of this fear, I cannot give
my life fully in the ministry. Because of this fear, I cannot love our parish
to the fullest. There is a need to have an outlet of this fear, and thanks that
though I am not a basketball player, I played basketball to release my fear. Yet
this is not enough though it is helpful. Fear comes back to strike again.
Today’s Gospel (Matthew
10: 26-33) talks about handling one’s fear which could cripple us to live and
love fully as human. Jesus said, “Fear not, therefore; you are of more value
than many sparrows.” With these words, Jesus
is telling us that to overcome our greatest fear, we have to seek comfort in
the great love of God for us. It is when we know, believe and feel that God
loves us then we know, believe and feel that He takes care of everything as everything
is under His control. Instead of allowing our fear to paralyze us, we are
called to speak about Jesus, speak of Jesus, speak to Jesus to show the world
that we can live and love fully because of Him. Jesus added, “So every one who acknowledges
me before men, I also will acknowledge before my Father who is in heaven.” In understanding
these words, one who lives and loves fully cannot but acknowledge Jesus as his
Lord and Saviour. He therefore who has no fear, praises Jesus the Lord. Him alone
he fears and no other. Psalm 34: 4 has this to say, “I sought the Lord, and He
answered me, and delivered me from all my fears.” In short, only in God’s love
we can be at rest, to live and love without fear, to live and love fully in
this world.